Ai Wei's novel "Mirror": Life cracks, cracks life

Ai Wei's novel "In Mirror":

Life cracks, cracks life

Text 丨 Bai Yujie

When you stare at the abyss, the abyss is staring at you. Is the mirror just an ordinary glass that can reflect all scenes? No, people's mood is different, the scenery seen through the mirror and the feeling of following. As an ordinary item, the mirror is constantly given a variety of symbolic connotations. Many literary works present the author's thinking direction in the form of "mirror". , Mixed with more connotations. La Kang's mirror stage starts from the baby's mirror, which confuses everything that confuses reality and imagination as a mirror experience. To know and grasp ourselves, we actually live in the "eyes" of others. Through "Mirror", we will see a chain effect caused by a conflict. In the process of solving the effect, learn to redeem and find the meaning of self -existence. This is the most precious thing taught by the novel.

The story kicked off by a heavy car accident. The wife's disfigurement and the death of their children, as if a boulder smashed on the original smooth and flat mirror, broke the peaceful life of several people related to it. Run Sheng, Shiping, Zishan, and Yi Rong are not all responsible for the accident, but no one can escape his crime. The author Ai Wei takes Runsheng's exploration of his own life significance as the main line. The four chapters are expanded from four perspectives. The text sets multiple mirrors of different dimensions to outline a complex and huge maze. The process of seeking a mirror for redemption is the process of knowing the self. Each character may have different choices, but the important thing is not to choose what is to choose to make a choice in order to face the life full of cracks and jump out of " Crack "" restraint and torture of his soul, face his life with a new attitude. "Mirror" is a very important image in the work, but except for this object itself, it can also be understood as a person or thing that can make people feel in control. Based on this, walk into the maze and explore the "mirror" from different angles.

The human heart is a maze, and the other is a mirror. There are four main characters in the story: Runsheng, Shiping, Zishan, and Yi Rong. For the descriptions of the characters, the author Ai Wei province to give people an intuitive experience. The language style exposed in the moment and the conversation presents a person. As for more emotions and thoughts, it is hidden behind their behavior. Understand the characters in the sentiment, and slowly outline a specific person formed. The "mirror" relationship exists not only in the character itself, but also in the control of the self and others. Taking Zishan and Runsheng as an example, Zishan's character is elegant and mother -in -law, and her inner has a strong desire and self -spirit. Hua Yu is not stable enough, Zishan is the same. Each of her generous moves has a crazy struggle behind it; Runsheng is a simple and clear and young man. When he appeared, his real personality was revealed -crazy and order coexisting, crazy is his inner choice. When it is external, it gives people a sense of solemn order. By comparing the two, you will also find that Runsheng seems to be Zishan's mirror. When Zishan blurts in the classroom, "love is worship, love is jealousy, and conquest." Perhaps the thorns were clustered, but when she rescued Run Sheng in the prison and found that he still loved herself, the light appeared, and Runsheng, who followed the "order of love", let Zishan see another herself.

Re -pull the perspective back to the whole. In fact, the characters in the story are both victims and people who have caused tragedy in different aspects. Absolutely innocent people do not exist. The people driven by desire are surrounded by many levels of crushing by love, family, individual, friendship, etc. In contradictions and conflicts, they finally find that the real self is false and the hearts of the people are like a maze; "Mirror" relationship is discovered, and true self -need to face it to find it. The novel penetrates the surface of life, writes the struggle of the soul of the character, and can make the characters think about it spiritually. This is an innovation that is different from the usual thinking.

The image is a maze and the building is a mirror. Color glass, church, Roman beads, light, cave ... There are too many images in the story. In the image maze built by the author, we feel real and illusory, light and darkness, spirit and meat, life and death. So, what do you guide us to get away? I guess it is architecture. Runsheng projected his spiritual thinking and torture in architectural design creativity and observed himself through architecture. The dojo designed by Ms. Yamaguchi Ms. Yamaguchi blends his own life experience: the channel symbolizes the maze of life, and in different stages of life to match different glass colors and light effects. Dark, the worshipers will be able to see the light projected on the Buddha statue, and it is instantly shrouded in the light. People and architecture are two -way guidance. The architecture we see is exquisite and unique, tall and spectacular. In fact, the wonderfulness is that the designer integrates ingenuity. When he chooses to integrate his life into the building, the building is destined to be a engraved with him. The masterpiece of the imprint, the completion of the building meets the world with a new independent gesture. At that moment, he remembered his mind and felt the education of the soul and the liberation of the soul. At this time, the dojo has already surpassed the architecture itself. Isn't this a reproduction of the Chinese classical "grid to know"? The architecture is a maze and the language is a mirror. The plot of "Mirror" is not complicated. What is moving is the author's meticulous ideas. The beginning of the tragedy is just a mirror image, which insists the illusion behind the facts. Although the story always starts from the perspective of God's perspective, the building of each chapter runs through, bringing into the perspective of different roles. , Bring people an unforgettable mind. The experience shown in the narrative and the description of the author are questioning readers, and sadness is coming. How can I learn to accept it? How to reach the urgent need to redeem? How to live, how to think about meaning? What is our life pillar? What kind of password does a human spiritual world have? I think that all answers are attributed to "self". People are living in order to live. The meaning and expectations of others can not have any substantial impact on your life. What people want to pursue is self -discovery and redemption. In many changes in time and place, the seemingly situation is changing, but the core of the problem is unchanged. Runsheng gradually breaks away from the individual through the building's exploration and redemption of self -meaning, and rises to a more universal level. The completion of the building made his heart was washed, and he was really relieved.

Runsheng coexist with architecture, and uses architecture to describe him. I think it is very similar to the Kim Pavilion Temple in Yoshimov's pen. This work is a torture of the writer's direction of his life. The extreme beauty is what it really looks like at this moment. The incinerated Jinge was not destroyed. It permanently existed in a unique form. Nirvana was reborn in the ashes, so that beauty really belongs to itself and gains a greater beauty. Corresponding to the burning, the Damocaris sword hanging above Runsheng's head was his spiritual punishment for his "sin". It's like the protagonist in Monroe's "Multidimensional World", Dolly, through a injured little boy to see what he asked, Runsheng saw himself through the building, the mirror was covered with cracks, but the life of cracks was not the end. But a new beginning, he looked at himself in the mirror, showing a calm smile.

Creation

Life is never a tan

Text 丨 Ai Wei

Ai Wei

In the spring of 2017, one of my friends living abroad encountered no disaster, as described in Hollywood movies. Several alien people broke into his house, and his wife and children died. He was just on a business trip that day and was spared. My friend is a gentle and kind person. He has no enemy, but he encounters such a cruel personal disaster. I heard the news trying to comfort him, but found that any language was light in the face of such a fierce incident.

I can feel his sadness and hatred across the screen. His two cute children and his wife disappeared from his life in an instant, and a lively and beautiful family destroyed. He must feel that the world becomes empty immediately. My friend's experience brings me a strong sense of impermanence and weakness. I am very worried about him. God hit him into hell, how would he face such a cruel pain in the future? How to face this world? How to face yourself? How to solve and resettle these issues?

The inspiration of "Mirror" comes from thinking about these issues. Of course, the novels read by the readers now have nothing to do with the story of my friend. The identity, occupation and social relationship built in the novel are completely different from my friend. There is a story about compassion, love, and forgiveness, and a story about how to calm our soul in a broken life.

Since 2017, I have been building this story. This story is slowly taking shape, of course, it is not so clear, even when I start writing, it is still chaotic. This novel requires a lot of knowledge. I started to do a lot of homework and ran a lot of novels. It really started writing in the second half of 2020. The title of "Mirror" was hanging above the document at the beginning. Below is still blank, like the mirror itself. Will it illuminate the long future writing journey? At first I was not sure if the name was good. I only knew that the name was highly consistent with what I wrote. Several friends knew that I was writing a long story and asked my name, and they all felt good. A friend asked me why I looked like such a philosophical name. I joked that any art is a mirror of the world. Of course, novels are of course. The novel is to see you and me through a fictional world, and see the world. The title of "Mirror" accompanied by my entire writing process, and has never changed, which is very rare in my writing career. As a container for human experience, it simulates human life on the surface, but this ancient style has its own wisdom. Chinese writers are extremely good in the description of the fireworks on earth. Regarding the writing of living chicken flying dogs, Chinese writers are probably the best group in world literature. With my personal opinion, we write down our experience, and at the same time we need to distinguish and think about experience. I talked about this problem in the article "Chinese Experience and its spirituality": As a Chinese writer today, in the face of a rich and mixed experience world, he has the responsibility to find the inner language belonging to the Chinese, and he has the responsibility to explore a one The most basic question is, as the Chinese today, what exactly is the pillar of our lives, what kind of password does the Chinese spiritual world have, how can we effectively open the Chinese spiritual world and find the Chinese soul".

When I said that, I just said that I wanted to do so, not to say I did it.

This novel involves architectural art. In my understanding, architecture is a nation's coat, naturally with the most basic concept of heaven and earth with a nation, and naturally religious. This allows me to get a spiritual dependence in a sense.

In the fourth part of the novel, Zhuang Runsheng completed Nagasaki's dojo design with his personal life process. There are four -sided Buddhas in this dojo, indicating that the four main characters in this book have unintentionally participated in this design and completed the work together. This design appeared in his mind at the moment Zhuang Runsheng's hate was released. At that moment, the protagonist had the joy of rebirth. However, life is never a tank. At the end of the novel, Zhuang Runsheng returned to the China -Myanmar border and found the problems facing the beautiful Feng Zhenzhen. He once again felt that individuals have always been difficult in the world.

Content source: "Literature and Art" June 20, 2022 version 2 version 2

WeChat editor: Lu Yimeng

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