Specialist girl, run on the balance wood of life

In high school, I "lost" the opportunity of the college entrance examination

In the weekend before the college entrance examination, I received an admission notice from a junior college in Zhongshan, Guangdong. At that time, I hadn't taken the college entrance examination, and I didn't know what it meant to me.

Until I returned to the class on Monday, I later realized that the changes it brought to my life trajectory. The head teacher said that the students who had to adjust the seats and had already received the college admission notice were all arranged to the last row.

The key on the head of the class teacher shakes dingy, and the words of the director of the department are even more painful: "Please do not harass the students who have been admitted, you should also participate in the college entrance examination. College Entrance Examination ... "

I looked at the director of the department, and he said what I said later. I couldn't hear it, just like the mosquito hovering on the top of the summer night, there was only a large buzzing sound.

Before participating in the independent enrollment of college, they said that this was just a guarantee. When I came back, I could continue to take the college entrance examination. At that time, my social experience was seriously insufficient, there was no idea, and my parents didn't care about my study, so I went to the exam. However, I did not expect that the admission was not a back road. For the so -called advancement rate, we were directly abandoned by the class teacher.

A few years later, I read a sentence in "Essence of Poor": "... if they (teachers and parents) give up, they will never find that this child may achieve good results."

But at the time, I may be accustomed to observing, dare not and could not fight for myself, although I can get undergraduate with my original grades.

I eventually experienced a complete high school and took the college entrance examination, but in such a state, my grades could be imagined. I didn't even fill in my volunteers. At that time, I felt that this was my life.

College, clarify the future learning direction

The summer vacation before the start of school, I first search for postgraduate information on the Internet for the first time, so I learned that the college cannot be directly entrance examination, and I want to apply for medical categories, and the conditions are even more harsh -for example Undergraduate courses for minor studies, through English level 4, can apply for the exam as the same academic ability for two years after graduating from college.

In my opinion at the time, these requirements were tantamount to climbing the sky. So I want to apply for a college book first, and then apply for the exam as an undergraduate. "The colleges and postgraduate entrance examinations are still far away, but at least now can I start preparing level 4?"

For the new military training, I go to the playground with the fourth -level words and real questions every day. At night, I am afraid that it will affect the rest of my roommate.

When I was in the sixth level, I started using scallops, and finally I didn't have to run everywhere with thick words. I was the only one in our class when I graduated, and now I have more than 1,200 days.

Scallop punch record

I read biopharmaceutical technology in college, which is rational, and my original ideal is to be a doctor, so my goal is to transfer to my favorite major through the entrance examination. And which direction for the specific test, it took me nearly three years to make it clear.

In the three years of college, I spent almost all my free time in the library. In the first year, I read some medical generals and slowly became interested in the bridge discipline of pharmacology and pharmacy. Sophomore sophomores were specializing in this direction through more detailed reading. In my junior year, there were elderly people died of a stroke in the family and touched me a lot. I started studying the journals in neuropsychological and determined the direction to read in the future: neuroshenology.

I went to school library for the first time

However, in my junior year, I did not sign up for this exam. My family's economy is not affluent. Parents have long been divorced. They have new families, and it is impossible for me to pay me two years of high undergraduate expenses for me. And because of professional restrictions, I cannot apply for a full -time undergraduate medicine, so I finally decided to work in Beijing and take the adult college entrance examination in Beijing.

North Drifting, two years of living alone

In 2018, I set foot on the land of the capital for the first time. In those two years, I left the hometown and walked alone.

My first job was to do new drug evaluation, and the unit also provided accommodation to avoid the trouble of renting a house.

Although not directly participating in the development of new drugs, our work belongs to one of them. The new drug research and development cycle is generally particularly long, and it is normal for ten or twenty years. My work is to determine its effectiveness and safety, and determine whether the next stage of clinical research can be performed.

It can be said that this is my ideal job. It is related to the majors I want to read. I can also learn a lot of knowledge. So even seven -day shifts in a week, I have no complaints. At that time, I was very sure that I had to put my whole life into the pharmaceutical industry. Not only would I do evaluation, but also to participate in real scientific research.

Beijing Olympic Forest Park

When Beijing's adult college entrance examination was filled in volunteer, I found that Peking University was also enrolling, but only opened psychology. Although I had thought about going to Peking University before, when I knew what I wanted, the school was not the first element that I chose. I reported to the Pharmaceutical University of Capital Medical University. Although I found that I was able to go to Peking University after the score.

"Persist in yourself" will always hear some discordant sounds. When I decided to take a non -undergraduate undergraduate, a classmate in the class said to me ashore and said, "It's useless to take this test." Some relatives in the family also said, "You might as well read this. "

To be honest, I was very uncomfortable to hear these words. My efforts were worthless to them, but I just talked about it. They spoiled the so -called "objective facts" and did not care about the "subjective damage" caused by me. But to this day, these words will not hurt me anymore, but I have learned a truth in them -don't impose your own thoughts in others, and you don't talk too much on others' choices.

After being admitted to the Capital Medical University, the curriculum arrangement was completely conflict with the working hours, which was unable to take care of it. I had to resign. The school does not provide dormitories, and can only rent a house by itself.

Later, I went to the current platform of the Library of the Media University and crowded with more than a dozen girls with more than a dozen girls. I have also interviewed medical editors. The English translation level and professional ability have been recognized, but because of the academic reasons, the interviewer asked me to go back to the notice, and there was no following.

Rental house in Beijing's partition house

I lived in the living room into the bedroom partition room. Without windows, there may be less than ten square meters. The room was too small to put a table one bed and one table, but the monthly rent was 1600. There was still a snail lion fans next door. I was forced to hear for a few months, and she hadn't spoiled it for me.

In the end, I lived under the Capital Airport. I fell asleep with the sound of the aircraft engine every day. It took two and a half hours to go to the school one way to go to school. But it is worth it.

Class in a undergraduate school

The ability to learn independent learning in the specialist has helped me a lot. I took a lot of graduate lessons during the undergraduate period. What I was most inspired was a series of lectures on neuroscience. A professor who published a dissertation on Nature told the new idea of ​​establishing animal models.

At that moment, I felt like I jumped from the Stone Age to the era of bioscience at once. I have become more confessed that doing research cannot be limited to textbooks. There is a framework to explore.

Later, the epidemic came, and the school started online classes. The landlord informed the house for temporary collection and asked me to move away within a week. At that time, Beijing was under heavy snow. I threw all my clothes and daily necessities, and only took a bunch of professional books back to my hometown in Guangdong.

Move in a snowy day

New journey, want to be a lighthouse

After returning to my hometown, I found out that it was nothing at all. What was more painful than this was a fence. In the new families of my parents, I am like an outsider. I can only use the grandfather's house, but I still suffer from the cold eyes of some elders.

In order to study at ease, I finally decided to change the place to start again. I went to Chengdu and lived in that strange city for a year. I went online every day to prepare for graduation thesis and postgraduate entrance examination. I also met a person who loved me very much and experienced the feeling of being protected for a long time.

When I was in elementary school, I witnessed the whole process of my parents from quarrel to divorce. From then on, my life was wandering around Keruyak's "On the Road". Therefore, I must study and live very hard to have a hope.

But this year in Chengdu, I slowly relieved. I no longer wake up at five o'clock as before, I can't wait to open every second, but learn to combine with work and rest. When I study, I will focus on the twelve points. I watch movies, study recipes, read my favorite favorite when I rest. Book. I was surprised to find that such changes have improved efficiency.

Some desserts you make

In this year's postgraduate entrance examination, I took the graduate student of South China Normal University with the first test and re -examination, and it was my firm neurological direction. I still remember that during the re -examination, the teacher asked me three professional questions, two of them were learned in the library when I was studying in a college. The moment I got the admission notice, I seemed to see the dawn of a newer life.

Graduate Admission Notice

Soon after, I will report to the new school. I look forward to learning new knowledge, do a good job in scientific research, and look forward to developing more effective antidepressants in the future, or finding the treatment drugs or methods of other spiritual and neuropathic diseases.

I hope I can truly help these patients and want them to know that there are such small and firm me in the world, and I have always missed them.

Undergraduate degree certificate.

I used to be a very vulgar person. Elementary school worked hard to study, but because I felt that my education was too low, I might not be easy to find a job. This could not make money to buy my own house and escape the so -called home.

Today, I continue to improve their education, read more books, and broaden my eyes, because I want to dedicate my ordinary life to help more people, in fact, I also save myself.

In fact, there are still many unpleasant past things in my story. I used to complain and cry, but now I only think that these are not enough, because life is not too harshly to treat me. I love others and is also loved ... These are slowly healing me, making me strong.

Destiny sometimes makes a joke with us. It doesn't matter. We can put it up and return to the trajectory we want, just like craftsmanship of craftsmen, and we need to find a suitable angle and focus. Take the first step and wait for the surprise.

Finally, I wish you all the balance of life and have a better future.

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