After reading the "Female Edition Fortune" of "Autumn Garden", I know that people are suffering, and there are men and women humble.

In 2020, a novel with only 280 pages of novels became popular and ranked second in the Douban annual Chinese literature list.

The novel is called "Autumn Garden", a thin book, which makes people feel heavy after reading.

The ups and downs of the protagonist Qiu Yuan is exactly the same as the fate of the blessing in "Living". Therefore, Qiuyuan is also known as the female version of Fortune.

She lost her father, middle -aged bereavement, and lost her children in her childhood.

Any ordinary people are unbearable, but Qiuyuan is a little bit at the end.

She told us with that bumpy life:

There will be countless suffering and difficulties in life, and it is already a great luck to live well.

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Compared with Fu Gui's loneliness, Qiuyuan's life is even more distressing. Many years ago, I read "Alive". When I saw Fusheng's experience in the family, my loved ones died one after another. When he was accompanied by the old cow, he felt fate and was full of hardships.

Later, I read the story of "Autumn Garden" and only knew:

The sadness of destiny is the same, but the autumn garden as a woman is even more distressing.

Qiuyuan was born in a medical family, and the girls who grew up in such an environment will have a bright future.

However, there was an unexpected situation. At the age of twelve, the two unes -in -law at home suffered a scourge. Her father died of illness. In just half a month, she sent three relatives.

As a pillar of the pillar, he couldn't stand a series of blows and smoked a big smoke.

Within a few years, the original bottom of the home was hollowed out.

At the age of seventeen, Qiuyuan, who had a beautiful longing for the future, had to let go of the books he was reading, dropped out of school home, and married a woman early.

Qiuyuan's husband's husband's name is Ren Shou. He is like his name and is gentle and kind. He loves her in Qiuyuan, not only loves her, but also satisfies her wish that she has been buried deep in her heart -for her to continue reading.

Ren Shou is not only good for Qiu Yuan, but also to those who are suffering in life. He is also kind and helpful.

However, he was a bit "poor" and finally spent all the bottom of the house.

The cousin was gambling, and Ren was deceived by him all savings, but he didn't want to recover; the thirteenth night of the year, thief entered the house, and Ren suffered whether the family was enough to eat. The New Year's Eve; the benevolence selected as the head of the country often helps others. In addition to his salary, he also sells the dowry head jewelry of Qiuyuan to help the poor.

Within a few years, the family could not make ends meet.

Fortunately, there is no road to the sky. Elementary schools in the township need teachers and have been invited to get invited to apply for the Normal School.

During the daytime autumn garden, she took the class normally. At night, she took the baby to do housework. Sometimes she also helped someone to do clothes, embroidery, and subsidized the house with sewing.

Husbands work in the field, they can neither go home to help, nor have no money to take home. The burden of the family fell on the Qiuyuan.

I have seen a paragraph on the Internet: "Every woman should be a princess who is favored. But the fact is that many women are petting others in their lives, but they have not been really loved by others."

Life is like a Shura field. Everyone who is in it must accept the test of different degrees, and women often pay more.

Back home, they are mothers, wives, and nannys of labor and small things;

Outside, they had to desperate like a man. They were shouted by their boss and nodded their heads. They were the most humble workers.

They also want to have a quiet life and enjoy a comfortable life.

But the stretched life, the children waiting to be fed, the elderly people with severe illness, and the accumulated housework, so that they are women, and they have to live like a superman.

When they were tired, they dared to take a break; they were wronged, crying in a place where no one, and then drying their tears; they fell, and they patted the dust to stand up and continued to set off.

On their weak shoulders, they picked their families and shoulder their careers.

Even if the body is thin and weak, in the mud of life, he has to move his heavy feet to move forward step by step.

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The fatigue of the body can be relieved, and the bitterness in my heart can do medical treatment. Later, Qiuyuan got a house on the remote mountain.

I moved over and found that the neighbor's family was difficult to get along with.

At the beginning, the enthusiastic autumn garden used the good bean sesame tea to stay with a big sister.

But the Man is about to drink tea every day. If there is no tea one day, the other party starts to scold people: "The virtuous cousin, sitting in her room, did not even drink a glass of tea."

Cursing is still polite. When the husband of Qiuyuan was classified as an old official and became the object of fighting, the big girl immediately showed her face.

She pointed to Qiu Yuan and said, "You are a bureaucratic wife, it is definitely not a good person. Now, we must be the master and care about you."

After marrying the daughter, Erju did not keep the woman's road, and often brought the wild man back to the maid's house. You can always go to his own main door. Erju found that from the back door of the Qiuyuan family, you can get through the maiden house, so he asked Qiuyuan to let Erju's wild wild. The man passed the back door.

Forced to be full of great gimmicks, Qiu Yuan had to agree.

Every night in the night, Qiuyuan had to open the door against her heart, which made her feel a lot of shame.

The younger son Bao Sheng is not a good stubble. Qiu Yuan bought a chicken with money for her husband to buy medicine.

Bao Sheng convened a group of people to surround the Qiuyuan in the hall. For six consecutive nights, Qiuyuan was pushed like a ball, and it did not stop for a moment. It was not until the autumn garden menstruation came, and the blood flowed down the pants. Let's stop.

The eldest son was attempted to insult Qiuyuan. After the Qiuyuan escaped desperately, he sought comfort from the husband, but the husband yelled: "The starvation is small, the loses are big.

Qiuyuan no longer expects her husband to help the burden of sharing life, but when he was bullied, the husband not only did not help himself, but also had no reason to blame, which made Qiuyuan more aggrieved.

Ding Fan, a professor at Nanjing University, said: "Autumn Garden" sinks out a highly condensed and truly concentrated social history from the change of Chinese social history, and reproduces the human nature 'living fossils' for a century. "

Without her husband's asylum, Qiu Yuan was like a bird who lost his wings and had to bear the outer bullying and difficulties.

In fact, there are many women like Qiuyuan, not only to make money desperately, be responsible for the old and young, but also have to face the pressure of all directions.

In the widowed marriage, they switched their characters at any time like a multi -faceted hand, and they turned tirelessly like the axis axis.

The fatigue of the body can still be relieved when sleeping, but the suffering in my heart, no one can say that no one can solve it, only silently swallowed with tears, digesting a little bit.

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More courage to live better than giving up. Due to natural disasters, food reduction is reduced, which is like worsening for people who can't fill the stomach.

There is a saying in the book describing the status quo of people's life at that time: "Hunger is more uncomfortable than buried."

People were reluctant to remove the shell and shattered with rice, which eventually caused constipation, and it was unbearable. When Qinghuang does not pick up, in order to wrap the belly, they often dig wild vegetables and pick up the bark to fill their hunger. Or boil the straw with water and boil it thickly, and forbearance to drink. There is really nothing to go to the pan, Qiuyuan went to steal the valley, or put down his face to house to discuss.

Because of the long -term starvation, the husband of Qiuyuan was swollen, his skin was shiny, his skin was swollen, and his body was thin.

After a few degrees of swelling, the husband left the world with infinite nostalgia.

After the death of her husband, this barren land could no longer fed a family, and Qiuyuan decided to leave with two minor children.

With the help of a kind person, she came to Hubei.

A few years later, in order to have a local formal account, she remarried a good person by the matchmaker, and she and the children were stable.

But I just saw a little hope of Qiuyuan, and had no time to breathe, and the younger son suddenly drowned.

At that time, she was in her fifties.

The teenager lost his father, the middle -aged bereavement, and the three major tragedies of life were resting on her. Qiuyuan was completely desperate.

She said, "It's not a bad life, but I am impatient."

At the crossroads of life, she wanted to hang suicide, but suddenly calmed down:

The world is cruel and she can die chic, but there are three children who need her.

"I want to think for them, and never bring pain to them. I want to survive!"

She buried the pain in her heart deeply, and did her best to cultivate other children into college students, helping them to make a business, and live a good life.

Some people say: "The life of Qiuyuan is like a process of plus pain in the pain."

From a weak wealthy lady provoked the heavy responsibility of the family, to the sinister heart, and the pain of losing their relatives.

The suffering seemed to open her mouth again and again on her skin. The new injury was not healed.

She couldn't care about the new injury and old pain, and desperately seized all opportunities to let go and struggle to survive.

In the end, the fate of Qiu Garden finally came to suffer. In her later years, she died at the age of 89 after enjoying a few years of blessing.

When sorting the relics, the children found a note: "Taste the sweetness and bitterness in my life, and finally come to the end."

A few numbers are the summary of Qiu Yuan's lifetime, and it is also a portrayal of her struggle like floating wood.

Her life, as Yu Hua said in "Living": "People live for living, not to live for things other than alive."

The fate of Qiuyuan and Fugui is exactly the same.

They are all a small grass in the gap between the times. They have eaten hard, suffered poor, and were hungry. They worked hard in the storm of destiny.

But Qiuyuan is more difficult than Fugui.

Qiuyuan is a weak woman. Without a man's strength, she can only carry the burden of the family with a thin body, and face the dullness of life with a fragile heart.

What is more difficult than Fugui is that Fugui only lives for himself, and Qiuyuan has to lead the family to find the opportunity to survive in the age of not eating or drinking.

Bovolva said in "Second Sex": "Women are not generated innate, but have been achieved acquired."

A weak woman should have received the care and pity of life.

However, having a baby, endless housework and overtime, malicious medium injuries and difficulties ... Let every woman who should have enjoyed the quiet years struggle in the sea of ​​suffering and difficult to breathe.

Under the hammer of life, they silently collected the fragile side under the heavy hammer of life, and eventually became an omnipotent female man, running for an old and young, and worked hard to work hard.

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The book "Autumn Garden" is about the biography of the mother and a memoir about suffering.

The author Yang Benfen is the daughter of Qiuyuan.

At that time, she was 60 years old and gave up a comfortable retirement life. In a narrow kitchen, she lay on a stool and rolled out paper. It was two years when writing, and she weighed 16 pounds.

After the novel was published, Qiu Yuan's life was exhausted and moved countless people.

What makes me most memorable is such a picture in the book:

"When my mother bent over to clean the bottom of the bed, I found that two bamboo shoots were born there. Generally, they were large, tall, and as if twins grow under the bed." I finally understood that those who supported Qiuyuan across the suffering may be like a belief like bamboo shoots like bamboo shoots.The

Even in a dark environment, as long as you work hard, one day will break through the haze of life.

Finally share a sentence in the book with you:

"Most of the time in life is struggling for survival. Like a hemp seeds, wherever the wind is blown, do everything you can to take root and germinate."

Like a praise. When you are about to bury you, don't forget to learn to make oily rapeseed, you can dance with the wind, and you will take root if you fall to the ground.

Author: Hanging · April Wuxiangxiang

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